AT A PLACE

It’s good to be at a place of peace within. To be at a place where struggling emotions ends, a place where the decision you make is yours and the fulfillment of it is sweet.

It’s good to be at a place of release, where emotions cease to dominate your thinking and actions. At a place where you can look back and not be back where you looked.

At a place where you rule your innermost thoughts and actions. At a place where you choose what’s best for you (for a change), at a place where old cravings and hangings cease to remain.

At a place where you shake off what you want and opt for what you need. At a place of health and happiness, and not a place of greed.

At a place where demons die, at a place where hope and happiness lies. Yes, I’m at that place!
Blessings..

DON'T SABOTAGE YOURSELF!!

It was a difficult day of sorts, for the first time on my Commitment journey I started to think too much. Mama used to always say “stop thinking so much”, my mind can really run away with me sometimes…well I am a human being.

I woke up this morning and for some reason felt a little “melancholy", a little down, a little poor me…I still hadn’t lost 50 pounds yet. HA! No it wasn’t the devil, the children weren’t bothering me, I didn’t have to go to work, no body was causing my blues…but I was like what’s the use!! I can honestly say that in 108 days, this was a first. What was wrong with me, was it the spirit of sabotage?

I have come a long way baby, so to speak, a commitment of “no salt, no sugar, no junk,YEAH ME! has been my lifeline and my salvation for health and healing. But what was up today, and where was it coming from, I had to reposition and fast!

Was something trying to sabotage me, trying to undermine my efforts, weaken my resolve to my commitment, was something trying to counteract my good results and my decisive stance?

I finally ate something and stayed on track, but that mindset was still bothering me. I always say life is mostly “all between the ears”. In other words, watch the mind, as your mind go, you go, more or less. I have to keep reminding myself to renew my mind with the word of God, and to have His mind…without this I’m sure loser!

I made it through the day, and enjoyed a great grill out for supper, perfectly legal to myself, and my God. I had beaten it, whatever it was…could it have been me? We often like to blame others for everything, that makes us look and feel good (we think), but it was only me. As that great motivator Les Brown would say “IT’S JUST LIFE“. I was dealing with life and the frustrations that often comes when our expectations are not met. Proverbs 13:12 says “ Hope deferred maketh the heart sick, but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life.” I will keep eating healthy and will lose the weight, I must push through the frustrations and go THROUGH THE PROCESS. It’s as simple as that, and when those times come (like today), I will push and move forward, not backward.

At the end of the day, I had a wonderful talk with daughter Kameki which helped tremendously. We laughed and talked and planned a bedroom and half bath for the house! HA! Good to have a daughter close by, we understand one another, we all need that.

So I didn’t sabotage myself, I stayed true to myself, and with the help of God I pulled myself up out of my own funk. HA! You see sometimes it’s just LIFE!!
Blessings

100 DAYS AND COUNTING....

100 DAYS AND COUNTING…….

One Hundred Days ago I made that simple commitment “No salt, no sugar, no junk, YEAH ME!!! I decided to post my results on FACEBOOK every night as my own motivation…not to brag or boast. I simply wanted to see if I could make a commitment and stick to it!! Now it hasn’t been that I haven’t tried before, spent many years trying, maybe that has been the problem all alone. This time I would just DECIDE and see if I could stick to my own
decision. One of my slogans is “Don’t try, just decide.”

The interesting piece about the commitment is that it had nothing to do with weight loss, though I need to lose. It was a commitment to decide to stop allowing salt, sugar, and junk in my body, and it has worked..or rather I worked it, haha. You see, it’s up to me to make it happen, no one can do this for me, not even God..He gives the strength, but I have to do the work. Faith, without works is dead, being alone. I know if I keep the junk out, the weight would have to come off! Just a good side effect of healthy living.

I really didn’t know what to expect, but after a week, I realized hey I can do this…you see it’s about doing, not wishing and hoping and praying and….you get the point, my decisions, and mine alone. "Be ye doers, be ye doers....

My greatest happiness is in the reality that I don’t have to eat things I see, I can see it and say “I don’t want that”. I’ve even baked 3 cakes without eating a bite…not even icing, no fried foods and no junk at all. It has been an amazing ride, one I plan to ride for the rest of my life.

After my first month, I couldn’t turn back, how could I go back..so I continued and it got easier. I’m most proud that though I haven’t lost a huge amount of weight, I’m eating healthy…no junk…the weight will come off in time…it won’t have a choice. But for now I thank God for giving the strength to keep my commitment to myself!

I need to tweak a few things for the next 100 days.
1) Get to bed on time!!! I sleep really well (thank God), but I have a tendency to stay up way too late..this must stop. Good health oftens start with good sleep, I need to get in bed on time, giving my body a chance to do what it needs to do to keep me running top speed.
2) Exercise…to add more activity is a must…move move move!!!
3) Continue to manage my emotions. I always say “if you don’t manage your emotions, your emotions will manage you”! I’ve found this to be true! Sometimes I can be too emotional and I have to keep this in check. You see healthy living isn’t just about food and drink and exercise, its about the mind, your psychic make up and a whole lot of other stuff. Remember: It’s usually all between your ears….. Follow me on my blog and notes, and pray with me as I go. Thanking you in advance. My prayer for each reader today is: Be blessed.. Don’t live life in distress..just let go let God, He’ll work things out for you!
Blessings!

THE TRANSITIONING CONTINUES....

Not that I’d ever hated it, but the transitioning from relaxed to natural hair is really going well. Today I took a big jump and had 31/2 inches cut with a light press and curl. It had been some 30 years since I’ve felt any natural heat on my head!! My stylist Amara did a great job with my nerves and my hair. HA! She said I’m about half way through the process, so by the end of the year I hope to be 100% natural. My hair is growing really fast, and I had a bunch of “new growth”. I was thinking of doing the BIG CHOP but glad I took this route…..slow and steady wins the race, and keeps my hair. I have thought about braids or twists or some other options, and may do some of that as my hair grows, but a light press and curl makes sense for me right now.

I can see my personality in this process, sometimes I have to step back and take my time, instead of jumping out of the difficult times. I’d had to push through the frustrations and go through the process…..this process is not for the faint of heart, it’s emotional, trying and often plain hard!

But like life, if you continue moving forward something good many times will emerge from the seemingly nothingness…...oh yeah, I made the right choice…love my chemical free hair.
Blessings

SORRY, I NEVER KNEW YOU.....HAIR!!!

I guess in life it’s important to have some knowledge of things. Whether its your car, your boat, your house your spouse, your children..…you might want to have some idea of how it or they work. I really never used this principle as it related to my hair. A share cropper’s daughter, I grew up working, and working hard on farms we did not own but slaved on, for little or no money. My hair was not a priority really, and hair was worked on when everything else was done! I do remember trying to plait it up, or pull the kinks out after a wash. Mama had six girls, WHEW… what a job, what a great woman working on six heads,haha.

I do remember my sister Minnie pulling and me hollering, and my cousin Pearl burning me while she said “be still gal”. I wanted to tell her…oh well HA! That was a looooooog time ago. We used the hot comb, and pony tails, but mainly fixing hair was for Easter or special occasions.

I remember when Papa died in 1967, my cousin Lee Cass straitened and curled my hair so pretty, I was the talk of the funeral. Mama of course would have fixed it but she was busy dealing with the loss of her beloved father, so Lee Cass fixed our hair. That’s how family operate really, somebody stepping up to the plate!

As I grew up and as money would allow, we would buy royal crown hair grease, a staple in the Black community, I really don’t remember a lot of shampoos and conditioners, just "lye soap" and as we got rich "ivory"….it kept us from crying, gentle on the eyes.haha

As time passed we got off the farm and daddy bought some land and we owned our own house…that was big, very big. Daddy was so proud, and we began working in the factory, and more money began to emerge. Somewhere in this time frame I began going to the Beauty Shop. There was a lady in my home town who “did hair”, and me and mama would get our hair fixed (done). At last freedom had come, or that’s what I thought at the time. She would put that creamy stuff on and WHALA straitened hair. We were like rich folks, or were we? HA! But let me tell you, not many things feel better than sitting in that chair and getting up looking like “a new creature”! Yes, I crack myself up…

Then the jeri curl came and as my dear hubby says “it was made for me” I loved me some jeri curl, that Care Free was da bomb! I wore my hair relaxed for over 25 years, and frankly I loved and enjoyed it. But of late…

I have been thinking of all the chemicals I have eaten over the years, from the things put on my hair. It’s just time for a change, for my health and wealth! Healthy eating and healthy living and healthy thinking, and yeah healthy hair, my own natural hair.

Since being relaxed free nearly 4 months, I am for the first time in a long time paying attention to my hair. You see before, somebody else did it and I paid the tab, didn’t think much about it!
I’m now finding and discovering the true texture of my hair. I find that I enjoy washing it, and even those dreaded plaits.!!!

I make my own hairdressing which consists of olive oil,coconut oil, and my favorite aloe vera gel. But I need some Shea Butter. I use GNLD and NATURES SUNSHINE shampoos and conditioners. I use other products as funds are available, haha.

Loving my new transitioning hair, yes it been an emotional roller coaster, frustrating, sometimes just wanna do the BIG CHOP and forget it….but it’s been worth it, and looking forward to the next several months of the process. Sorry my dear hair, I never knew you…but I’m learning and I like you very much!
Blessings

THE PASSING OF A SIBLING

My daddy was a tall, very thin man, bigger than life…we thought, never really thought of him dying…but he did. My mama was a strong resilient, beautiful woman; soft spoken but loud enough to be heard, obeyed and respected. Mama died too, three years ago, a good and ripe 89 years old, daddy was 85. Losing your parents is very difficult, I’ve faced both deaths and can talk about their passing with pride and joy, for this I’m grateful to God.
But the passing of a sibling is very different, don’t ask me why for I don’t know. I guess in a sense you know your parent’s are going to die, it’s really the natural process. To bury your child…I can’t imagine, but the passing of the parent, sooner or later it’s gonna happen.
Three years ago my baby sister Faye died, it really “threw me”, you see I’d never thought about the passing of a sibling. We were three years apart, she was a twin, and I was the knee baby. Everything was Glenda, Faye and Kaye. Mama sometimes called us together…Come here Glenda Faye and Kaye, as if we were triplets!!..haha. We worked the fields together, she had asthma like daddy, and Kaye had health problems, so I did the bulk of the work. I didn’t mind, I was the work horse. We sang in the choir together, going from church to church to sing and have the beloved Children Plays. We were close and shared secrets mama and daddy never knew!! Oh we had our moments,…we were sisters for crying out loud…HA! She talked, and laughed and was the family’s funny girl, and also the voice of reason many times.
She was one of the very few people who really knew me. I could call home and she would ask me “what’s wrong?, are you alright? I really miss talking to her, I could be straight up with her, I can’t say that about many people….. Siblings are different, when they’re gone, your life changes, I can’t really explain it, but I feel it.
My oldest brother died yesterday, our relationship was much different but still a difficult time for me. T. J. was much older, and I was very young when he left home, and I never really got to know him very well. As the years passed I seemed to miss him more and more.
One year I decided I’m going to Baltimore, find him and bring him home for Christmas, with my sister Minnie in tow we set off. We found him and he couldn’t out talk me..haha…we started back to North Carolina! The traffic was horrific, and I still remember how he stuck his head out the window, directing traffic and asking people to let his baby sister through. Still a good memory of him.
I can still remember the reaction of mama and daddy when we drove up, they didn’t think I could do it! Boy were they glad to see him…we all were! He stayed awhile, and then back to Baltimore, to his life, to his world. You have to accept people were they are and move on.
He’s gone now, but not forgotten, and I thank God for fond memories of both my siblings. They really wouldn’t want me to be sad…..so I grieve and move on……but it’s tough, the passing of a sibling……

CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!!!

It is interesting how things change, and it’s a good thing too. I'm thankful for the opportunity to change. God is so good, his mercies are from everlasting to everlasting, and I am of all people....very blessed. I'm experiencing some major victories here of late, saying no to junk food has really been a blessing to me. The Lil Debbie Raisin cake, one of my favorite junkies, didn't even tempt me today! Wow.....and we all know there's no junk quite as tempting and delicious as Lil Debbie.

Yesterday was a very good day for me. Planning a trip to the beach, we instead opted to grill. Haven’t grilled since moving to Florida, I guess my hubby had that itch, and we all accommodated him! I really enjoyed it, and I stayed “legal”, seasoning the veggies and meat. I have to be very creative when fixing for the family, but I’ve learned to season the food to the point they don’t miss the salt so much. Of course I add salt for them sometimes, but most foods have salt anyway…we’re just used to adding it, so I use a lotta herbs and spices, juice of limes, lemons, vinegars and other good stuff to tickle the taste buds.

Back to the raisin cakes….every now and then my husband gets a sweet tooth or teeth. Today he brought home pecan swirls, honey buns, and you guessed it…the raisin cakes. I’ve seen the time three would have been gone from my sight before I could adjust the television! Since July I have resisted all kinds of stuff, chocolate and Red Velvet cake, ice cream, doughnuts, cookies etc. But that was it….no junk for me. I guess it’s easier for me because I’m eating better and the cravings have left me, I just don’t want the bad stuff anymore. But Little Debbie, one of my favorites…never would have thunk it!! ….Change is possible after all….